Sunday, April 25, 2010
514: Teresa's Bday Party!!
Had an stay overnight at Eileen house for preparing and making Teresa birthday present. Took quite along time to do it. Damn tired until and went to sleep. Continue the next day. Next day overslept then wake up faster rush out the present for her. I'm so stupid until I only brought my jeans to Eileen house then I forgot to bring my shirt along. Actually was intend to go home take it but rain too big cant go home.
In the evening, went to Railway Mall to get the cake for the birthday gal. Then cab down to Vivo City to meet Teresa, Xuan De, Li Ying and Jiunn Ngee for dinner at soup spoon. After dinner, we went to the top garden to celebrate Teresa birthday for you and sing birthday song LOUD out!! Take photos together and eat the cake!!!
After celebration, we went to the Dragonfly for party!! Party for Teresa too!! Drink and listen to Chinese Pops songs. Li Yi came and join us too. Super long nv drink so much already. I damn miss it.. I din get drunk but the poor birthday gal get drunk. Club and drink until 4 plus 5 then everyone go home. Li Ying and Eileen send Teresa send birthday gal to Li Ying house to rest. Elizabeth, Li Yi and me cab there too.. Rest awhile and wait for first bus to go home. So tired now!! But thank god i din get drunk and still awake the whole time!!
Got to go rest now.. Tired.. Recharging time!!
I will end my post of the day @
9:04 AM
Saturday, April 17, 2010
513:
Happy and Sad!!
I decide to open my blog in front of you coz I know you will know it. So I prepare. You will find out one. I decide to talk to you when you half asleep and half awake. Coz this is the best chance for me to say out everything!! Shout out everything in my heart!! Say all I feel and I think. When you will awake, I just don have to courage and say out everything!!
Like you told me what kind of person is Papa and Mama. Yup.. I like them too. Love to act strong every time. No matters what happen, just act strong in front of ppl. Don let ppl see ur weak side. Although you told me that you don care, I must tell you whatever thing I feel but still I choose to keep it inside me. Sorry. Unless something happen.
I feel happy that you drop ur tears because you feel that the words that I told you and you can feel that I'm like disappearing. As least I know that I got a stand in your heart. I feel happy already. But what I say to you just remember and think if you cant remember. I cant say much already.
Think will be the last time posting this all things already. Like I use to say, I don wan say it anymore. I just kept everything in me and shut up all the way! Keep everything to myself is the best!!
Your blog isit all write to me to see?? Can tell me?? Tell me the truth??
You are so careless!! I know already. I know you have been visiting my blog already. I use Mac I know le. I nt going to say anything until you tell me your own. Just tell me ok!! I know you got things need to say. I'm prepare!!
I still Love you as much as last time. =]
我要你说真心话！！
I will end my post of the day @
11:39 PM
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
512:
Random!!
Sick and Tired of those shit!!
I will end my post of the day @
4:50 PM
511:
我白白疼错人了！！你们让我很失望！！
Everyone just pretending nth was going on. Wan to lie also use brain la. You all can lie to me but You all cant lie to technology. Is nt I'm thinking so much. Is really what I think and everything is showing me. How am I going to believe you all.
If going to pick someone can just say. No need go 1 big round to avoid the reason why going to the place. And I nt stupid either. I can heard everything. Pls.
Everything is just act. Act. Act and act!! I just cant believe it. Everyone pretending nth. Can you all just open your month and say something you wanna say. Got anything don like or don wan it anymore just open the month!!
Wan give up, wan comment, wan ask, wan anything just open the month!!! Stop making me so tired!! Everything is just a show in front of me.
If wanna meet him or whatever can just shoot. No need go 1 so big round!!
Cover for him is useless!! Do Less More Effect. Do More Less Effect!!
He just an 小白脸！！ I don get it why you both like to cover for him.
Since you both like, go and do what you wan!!
Ps: Pls Just stop the act!!!
Ps: 白白疼你们也白白为你们做这多事！！
Ps: 你们为了他骗了我， 我算什么？？
I will end my post of the day @
4:00 PM
Monday, April 12, 2010
510:
Nth much. Just a wake up post.
Been wondering from last night, did I do the right or wrong thing. Isit silly or what.
I know you know something already. No point pretending. And Stop pretending. I don like ppl to pretend. If you don like it or what just open your mouth. Keeping quiet wont be helping anything.
So yup. And you do know that I hate ppl tell lie to me. But yet, still do it. What for?
Been giving in for everything, helping you for everything, doing for everything and waste all the money just to meet you already. Isn't enough for you to make you happy?
Or being understandable your thoughts and everything is enough for you? Know what you trying to say and get in on the spot is what you want and you din say anything also know what you wanna say and feel then you will be happy?
Just tell me what you want to do right now?? Just tell me pls!! Pretending nth happen wasn't good for anyone. Living in a triangle is so tired. Why got such stuff in this world. I don like this.
Half a year coming le, Things has been going too up and too down. I love every moment we had together. Watching movies, run event, take photos, eat breakfast, lunch and dinner, preparing table for every meals. I totally love that moments. And when only at your house, I can have a proper meal and enough of rest for myself. I just love it. I love your cook and grandma's cook. Love it. Just hope everything can back to where we will and just stay there. Like how I told you the last time. I'm use to have you prepare my meals for me. I know I cant explain too much. Just because of my English. But somethings cant use words to explain de. Just use eyes and heart to see then can know.
Happy moments going to end soon or I shall say it already end?
Ps: Nv lie to each other!
I will end my post of the day @
2:44 PM
Sunday, April 11, 2010
509:
A guy who use a girl money to get the items that he wanted to get it. 小白脸 and you are an Idiot!!
What a joke man. I cant believe when I heard this. But I was angry rather than laughing. I don like the feeling and heard what I have heard.
I was so so angry until I could nt drive as how I drive. Because of your own needs, you ask ppl to help you. You can just go jump down the building man. Or should I say you don have a family?? No family to help you pay or chip in what you need. Did your family members all gone?? Isit true?
I was angry when on the way to meet friends but I relax myself in the car first before stepping out of my car. Pretend nth was happening. Yup.. This is what I had told myself in the previous post. I have to control my emotional. I'm always acting. Perhaps nt a good actor. =]
I choose to listen and let go everything. Choose nt to argue with you about the matters I mention just now. Coz arguing with you because of that problem is so childish and is nt worth it for me to argue you. Just because of that fucking person. True he is an fucking person.
I know you found out my blog. I got a feeling that you find out. And my blog do let me know who comes to my blog. So yup. And I can know why you change your gmail password my dear. I know you know something. And you did told me that you will go find out my blog. So I just prepare everything already. I knew this day will come. So I just face it and get whatever things I will be getting.
So if you read my blog already just own up. I wont say anything and get prepare to get anything from you!!
Take Care my dear!!
I will angry because I care for you and your $$$.
Pls understand why I angry!
Ps: Leaving in the hell again from tomorrow!!
I will end my post of the day @
11:27 PM
Saturday, April 10, 2010
508:
Things happens again!!
I just don like and love it.
And I don get it too.. Why have to do this? Isit so important to do it? Can you just tell me?
When you din talk to a person for a few weeks then you can just call him Dear or even Baby?? And kept saying I miss you and miss you alot when your own heart has another person in it. What kind of reason is this? Isit reasonable and fair or unreasonable and unfair to you or me? So means that when I too long nv talk to a person for this while then i can call her dear or baby too and saying I miss you and Miss you alot? If you will in my shoe, how you would feel??
I don get it when comes to this!
Do less gets more effort!! Do more gets less effort!!
What is this? I do so much for you yet what I have for return? And outsiders can see that I do pretty much more than him. He just doing nth yet get so much attention from you. You get it?
"Hey Dear.
I miss you. :) That's pretty sum up everything. :)"
What is this after all?? Can you explain or you just answer is by you too long nv talk to him. You would rather spend special time with him than me. True! True that I might nt able to know what you thinking and trying to say all the time. He knows you more than me. He knows what you wan. He knows your everything. But for me nope. Really. I cannot. I know I'm nt as good as him. Nt as perfect as him. You got nth to share with me. Nth at all.. You rather share things with him coz he understands what you wanna to say and tell.
2 more days he is coming back. Means that I'm leaving in the fear again. Leaving in the fear where things are going to happen again and again. I don like it and neither love it!! Soon time will be separated into 2 already. Lesser time together. Unhappy things will coming up too!!
I don wish to say anything more! I choose to keep everything to myself. Choose to let my emotional takes over everything. I don wan to say anything already. No point saying le. Keep quiet is the best thing for me to do. Anyone who ask I just keep quiet.
Same as ppl. Just pretend nth is going on and nth is happening. And just continue walk through my life. And just don tell me what to do and what to do. I choose my path. So just let me walk through. I will learn my mistakes and everything. Thanks!
Ps: Everything is just a lie!!
Ps: Just let me be.
Ps: Just shhh when you saw me keeping quiet!
I will end my post of the day @
3:42 PM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
507:
This is life..
People started to take whatever things you do for them for granted.
Take everything for granted.
What you give, they take and they don ever think how much you do for them.
The more you give in, the more they take.
Without thinking how much they take and nv thought of returning.
Talk about returning, some might return you everything tat you give in, some might return you abit. Worst!! Some don even return you anything. They just took it. Don know wat is shame or i should say it in the easy way. Pai Say. They don know how to write and read this word. Just simple word.
What is Love, Trust, Confidence, Treasure, Faithful, Believe, Relationship, Happiness and Give up to you??
Is this few things nth to you at all? Or you don even care and notice that. By doing so much for you and wasting all the time, effort and money on you?? Money i don care coz I can earn back again. But for Time and effort, can i earn back?? NO!! Nt at all. Once is given, will nv earn back. Only thing can earn back is experience. Or should nt say experience. Sound so funny. Is nt earn also. Is learn from lesson. Learn from everything.
By doing so much thing yet I had what for return?? NTH AT ALL??
But yet doing nth at all get return.
What is this?? Do you understand and know how to look at things at the correct way?? I just take it and believe that doing nth at all getting return.. Yet doing so much gets nth. Isn't fair to me?? Or you just playing my feelings?? Or I should say Replacement! Am I using the correct word? Just a replacement for the time being. Replace when he is nt around you. Feelings are all fake one. Think of him more than think of me. Calling the special word to him more than to me. Attention more to him too. Then about me??
It is so fake!! Just like an drama show is showing live!! Is all acting!! Everything is nt real at all!! I cant believe what I had read again and saw again. Giving yourself that kind of excuse is so rubbish. Is all lie at all. Stop giving yourself that kind of excuse that you don know anything. That's an idiot please!!
Ps: 我爱的人不是爱我的人!!
Ps: 你选泽了背叛我!!
Ps: Just an replacement for the time being!!
Ps: You betray the feelings that I have gave you!!
I will end my post of the day @
5:58 PM
Thursday, April 1, 2010
506:
Time passes!!
Time getting shorter and shorter.
Time getting lesser and lesser.
Things are getting disappear.
Things are getting bored.
Things are getting old.
Everything started to change and started to disappear in front of me. Which is I don wish to happen. I cant change the fate of its changing and disappearing in front of me. I wish I can just stop everything. Stop the time, stop the changing and stop the disappearing.
This 2 to 3 days just kept repeating the song. Just kept repeating it. Coz it can make me think. But is think of those useless and negative stuff. Think of how bad thing works in front of me. I totally don know wat is going on. No body brings me to the light only I'm bringing myself into the dark. No ones will be there to help me.
Am I a replacement?? If it is, can let me know or would rather let me hang for empty hopes and dreams. Being use as a replacement still don know? Treating me as an idiot or a fool??
Ps: Yi Xiang Qi Yuan!!
Ps: No love is showed.
Ps: No interest is showed.
I will end my post of the day @
2:15 AM
